moments of time

These days it’s harder to get up in the morning
For my life suffers like it’s in mourning
I get up and do my routine only to find myself crying over the sink
Without blissful thoughts that could change the way I think
No matter what I think or do
Nothing helps for everything doesn’t construed
I want to scream at everyone and everything
I yearn for everyone to see my aching
So they know my horrific pain
This pain that constantly remains
They said to look in the brighter tomorrow
I do I’ve tried but nothing eradicates these sorrows
All of this is so unnatural to me
Nothing seems to change the path of this misery
I’ve adapted to it and learn everything I could
It’s been too good for me and now it’s caught up to be withstood
I wished this heartache changes sometime soon
For it might leave both of us immune
To believe that this is all we ought to be
Nothing more to live by but all this agony
I hope all becomes presently to an end
All these suffering and heartaches mend
For I can not longer take it’s lowly strides
Since all I’ve hoped for is deeply damaged all I have inside.

things are not fair… it’s just not.

Kahit ano gawin ko, sabihin ko parepareho pa rin ang labas… It’s like I’m not even there. Kahit ano rason mo sa mga sinasabi mo, wala naman nakakaintindi. Parang kabila ng langit ang feelings ng isang paguusap sa wall. Ang tigas niya nothing you can say make any difference. Pero eto na, andito na, ano pa ba magagawa ko kung hindi na lang magdasal na hindi sana ganto ito habang buhay. Sana may ubot rami ng saya sa para makalimutan ang lungkot. Sana malakas ang loob ko na “Oo” na lang lahat, kahit masakit sa kalooban. Diyos ko paano na ba ito???

It’s not over…
its still inside of me…
all that you used to say…
I’m still trying to push it all away…
but it seems the end was just the begining…
to think of you all the time…
to want to the one you called your love again…
the thoughts of you continue to pours in…
I avoid it as much as I can…
as your pictures still hangs…
close by…
it’s the last thing I see…
and the first thing, when I awake…
I took it down before…
but I put it up again…
I think my heart is messing with me…
you is what it all wants to see…
seeing the days of us…
now is just a memories in the past…
sad everyday becomes sadder…
as much as I want it…
to be…
It’s still not over.

The memories we made is lingering through my inner soul

Our shadows emerges and is now taking a tol

Of the great times spend with each other

As we take upon this world together

The laughter, the tears, and the smiles

Its farther than any length of miles

It came to disappeared all of a sudden

And I’m now left to be forgotten

Its sad..

And I feel so bad

As the sadness appears in each fall of my tears

My heart aches for longing to be again near

Wishing to share more joyous times

With the boundaries without crossing the set lines

But the feeling has changed

Fingers are pointing to each other with blame

Our eyes is now used to speak to one another

As our mind nightly routine fills with wonder

If I’m allowed I want to take in all the said faults

Just so we can take back all we had, even if it’s default

For every moment I share with you

Is a lasting treasure of a relationship that is true

There is no other else I would want

But to continue what we have already begun

For the memories creates happy endings

For you being in my life is a part of my fulfilling.

- Us

Monalisa M.

02/03/07

So I just recetly edited my profile right???… like yesterday Jan 31, 07… and when I opened my friendster today, Feb 01, 2007… I saw that I have 308 views to my profile… Now I don’t even have that much of friends… so I wonder, within 24 hours who the heck views my profile, that much… and to top it off… my profile is friends only… so make you wonder, doesn’t it…

Hmmmm… perhaps I have an admirer or to creep me out… a stalker maybe… hehehe

That’s funny though.. how can you look at a private profile… you can’t even see the whole page… and you know what just because of this … I think I will keep my profile to what it is now… "Private"… HAHAHA!!!

iNgat kayo!!!

*muah*

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